Don't Try To Wake Me, Please

Come you to me
Please come now to me
I'm so very tired
And I'll lay down my head
So within my dreams
Please come now to me
I am tired and I need you here
To help me rest

In my dreams
Say its me you need
Just say its me you need
Before you leave me alone

And don't try to wake me
In the cold morning
Just let me alone

Because when I'm in infamy
With you by my side
I can never feel cold
And here with me
In my dreams
You can never freely go

Come you to me
Please come now to me
I'm so very tired
And I hate to wake-up alone
And all so very alone

Carry me to another world
Carry me to a better world
Dear God there should be
Oh God there must be

And if there is
And if there must be
Can you be so very kind
And show me?
Please my love
Show me

I Fit Where?

It was your touch
Or was it solely your memory
You said you would give your heart
To this falling star
How I fall
And here it sits within my heart

No one understands
And no one ever will
All that I feel I have lost

When she found me here
Under the cold clear grey sky
The words that she screamed
Stressed and though unfamiliar
They live where our feelings sear

And if emptiness had a home
It would live in her chest
Where she craves
Reality where her memories rage
While in her dreams 'he' lives

All your selfishness has robbed you
Of the woman you could have been
Yet I wouldn't change a thing about you
I will always call you 'my beloved friend'

If I don't fit here, now in your life
Then where?

Its So Real

From collapse to collapse
The darkness between each one is thinning
Its always more than I think
From formal family greetings
To seeing your wedding cake
As I slept
In my dreams
Its so real

So now I keep my distance
That we both know
Complications can cloud
Our 'hellos' and pics
We send through the fiber optic cloud
Its like watching a poison
That's flowing from
The brunette girlfriend
That's being chased by other men
Yet
Whose hardly moving

You were always the one
And yet I'm not allowed to express
Nor can I spit it out when
You wear your white dress
So I, along with everyone here
Will ingest this facade
Inaccurately

In The Same Way

Oh how I hoped you were somebody
Someone I couldn't live without
Someone who could pull me to my feet again
When I feel hollowed out

So now darling do you hear me
In the dark
Whispering your name

I feel like I'm the last boy in this mountain town
With my empty veins
Staring at the frozen ground
I said I swear I'll never see you frown
You said that I'm lost
Are we ever truly found

Yes I know the place
But I don't know the way
Sometimes I feel no shame

So darling
Do you hear what I fear
I fear whats coming after me
Whispering your name

Stay...
Please just stay with me

But you threw your heart away
And I buried mine in the same way
I can still hear you walk away

Stay...
Please just stay with me

Over And Over

Just like a ghost
You are finally here
She has traveled all the miles
And countless tears

I will make tonight a memory
One to take me higher and higher
The sight of my shadow at your feet
I can see you standing alone

The night itself
Its a revelry
I can drag this image out for a while
I keep her lost with lock and key
Because she's fits  my personal style

She is the kind to lead you in
It is not over
Her smile sets the mood
And so I begin
To walk over
Just a whisper of her words
That makes me grin
Can I please have her
We grab a hold just to face the end
Our spark is what I am speaking of

I made this night a memory
Yes you took me higher and higher
You make it desperate for me to leave
And yet I'm coming back to you

She takes me away
Then leads me in
It is far from over
Her eyes set the mood
So I begin to walk over
She breathes a word
It makes me grin
Can I please have her

I crawl my way back to you again
To hear you speak and feel you dream again
To kiss your lips from well deep within
You are my love
My heroin
I will cross the grave
And fight 'the bends'
To carry our love
To the worlds end

Its not over
Over and over
Its not so over
Over and over

All That We Are

The ice covers the streets cold
The street lights are all old
She feels like a child left on her own
As she flows into her own

It all slowly melts away
Into a wide green river full of shame
But at least shes numb to the pain
L can you see it?

Can you feel the shallow wave
Its like a needle to the grave
Like from your hell to far away
You are my only

You seem so sad my Valentine
On your journey to your light
But like the first flame to the fire
You throw your own soul to the pyre
You're my only

We are
All that we are
We are just holding on
Just until we fall apart

Yes we are
All that we are
We are just holding on
Until we fall apart

What Was It

So here we stand
Within this sun sheltered place
Wanting so much just to see
Your face behind your face

I am left with the dust
Of your lovers
Who have gone before
And who have left no trace

Down by the river's mumbling
Or within the mountains shadow falling
You and were colliding
All of the places
You and I would run off
But what was it we were running from

I will watch you
Silhouetted standing there
Against the silver running water unaware
And like a blue bird you cut through the air

Did you truly think that you couldn't chose
That I would be here
Win or lose this
In all the places we would hide off
What was it we were thinking of

Within my still house of make-believe
We are one but divided in two
Adam and Eve
You send out and I receive
Down by the rivers side
In our secret world where we collided
In all the places we were hiding of

What was it we were thinking of

Creeping Tide

Oh all of this time
We let it slip past us
As unnoticed as the creeping tide
I want to feel nothing but your body
Alone
Just you and I

You can go
And I will be OK
Its nothing troubling my dear
Just a touch of slipping youth
Dressed in neon gray

So when will we be
Only you and me
Looking at this summer sky
Feeling your hand
Warm in mine
Can I be yours?
Because I call you 'mine'

I don't care where we meet
From the silence of your room
To the constant stomping feet
Of the never resting street

Never recognizing a single thing
From the wind that whips you and me
To signs that litter the streets
All I feel is your hearts beat for me

Perfect Nature

And in our minds
At the very end of things
All at once become
A star-field of memories
An electric display
Glowing background of black and light

That spark that occurs
When mortal eyes meet
A sight of such perfect nature
A wonder

That is what it all means
In the end
To be human
A perfection
Without end

To take such feeling
If one could call it that
To hold it all in ones hands
There is only one word to describe
One word to which we are all tied

The feeling
The thought
Of wonders of the night sky
The wonders that roll above
Billions have felt it
When looking, at night
At the vastness that moves above

Love

Forever

There are no more illusions
No more regrets to get us by
It never felt like debt
It never felt like control of the government
You did only your duty
To provide for your way of life

When I see our flag
I feel you close
Like you want to let me know
That its up to me to make
All your dreams come true

Its the Red White and Blue
America
For which you died
I will begin anew
For America
The Experiment for which you died

I found out it was true
Every word you said
Was dripping Red White and Blue
One Seven Seven Six
Every word from your lips
Gave me a course from which to guide my life

Please never hold anything back
Share with us your mind
And your mind will set you free

On this day I feel you close
I can feel you close like you wanted me to
And forever I believe in you
And forever I will believe in you

Waking Up

I'm waking up
I'm starting new
And its about time
That I forget how to give up

If there ever was
A moment to give in
It stops here and now
Please know you'll never be forgotten

How it felt
The velvet of your lips
The words you said
Your finger tips

You will forever live within
So will how you moved and swayed

I must wake up
And see the sun that shines
To know all I see
In the reflection of your eyes

I understand its sad
I've raised this flag
To shed my colors exposed
To feel freedom in my bones

You will forever live within
So will how you moved and swayed

One More Chance

You know I never wanted to let you down
It hurts me deep to know I was the one to make you sad
Lord knows I want to undo that which I've done
And reclaim the faith in me that you had

Girl you know I love you more than anyone
Though at times I get wrapped up in myself
You must know I don't want to do you wrong
And bring you to question all that we have

I know that I've let you down
And I'm begging for one more chance

All I feel now when I lay down
Is the cold Earth against my face
And the distance between you and me
I'm dying within the immense space

Its amazing that no one will ever know
The secrets we've sealed between stars and moon
What we've whispered in the wooded dark
And the moments that flew away too soon

I know I've let you down
And I'm begging for one more chance

Apart

He's got a big plan
His mind is set
And maybe he's right
At the right time
And in the right place
Maybe tonight

With his whisper
Or was it his double take
That gave you the sign
To make out
Or just kiss him hard
Without any reservations in mind

Its late at night
The passenger seat laid down to fit
Your fit body set to flip
Your best friend has noticed
Maybe you've slipped
And you are missing
The lips you're meant to kiss

Your kiss fills with terror
When in the cold day light
When you see him laying there
His shape, sound and smell are not mine

You tell yourself he's cute
Cute in a way you cannot speak
The way it should be in movies
When the woman's knees get weak
Yet you know it will all lead to causal waves
And you feeling hollow for the rest of your days

Friends say its only a crush and it will go away
Its just like all the others
It will go away
Or maybe you're in danger
And you just don't know
You pray out loud for relief
But it just grows more

In your dreams you hold me close
Blue eyes locked onto mine
This is love
So beautiful because it feels so right
Lean in
Can you hear my beating heart
Listen closely as I tell you
I'll make sure we are never apart

You should have seen your face
When he walked up and said his feelings had passed
And you looked away
Not used to dealing with feelings unless attached to hands
Your hand brushed up against his
You left it there
You told him how you felt
He held you within his dead stare

You saw him hesitate
You asked yourself 'what should I do?'
You never wanted to be played like a fool
But your reservations they started pass
Not caring if this was ever meant to last

Either way he just wanted you
All of this was bad
Because with every taste
He wanted you and this was making him crazy

But in your dreams you hold me close
Blue eyes locked onto mine
This is love
So beautiful because it feels so right
Lean in
So you can you hear my beating heart girl
Listen closely as I tell you
I'll make sure we are never apart

Places

There is something in me
A darkened feeling
All the time I've said I'm strong
The way you're feeling
I wish I were feeling
I can't keep this up for very long
Because this time you've gone too far

Don't forget
I know what you are
Don't say nothing
And don't talk back
Keep your hands on the wheel
Don't say nothing
This is for real

No warning that this would hurt
No one told me I'd be the one against the wall
Warm feet in cold dirt
To find the places I got hurt

Did I ever look
If so what did I find
Its the clothes I'm in
That make me blind
I feel it in my skin
I feel it when it grows
I know it in my heart
That's the place it goes

Don't forget
I know what you are
Don't say nothing
And don't talk back
Keep your hands on the wheel
Don't say nothing
This is for real

I feel you when I hurt
Please stay with me
I need support
I dig my warm feet in cold dirt
To find the places I got hurt

What We Are Given

I saw my own reflection
I caught it in the window
I could see the darkness in my heart
I saw all the signs of my undoing
They have been there from the start

The darkness I've created
It still has its work to do
Though my knotted cord is untying
I see the headed and the holy
They are sitting there on high
So secure with everything I am buying

With all that we are given
We are just one woman and one man
We speak of 'union'
This union of this woman and this man

 I can feel it
My grip is surely slipping
I think I've lost my home
Yes, I think I've lost all I know
I have no credit with you anymore
Your fingers long for rings of gold

Is that understanding or anger that I see
Held so resolutely in your glance
And all the while the distance
It grows between you and me
Please help me understand

With all that we are given
We are just one woman and one man
We speak of 'union'
This union of this woman and this man

Upon my request
You take me in
Folded in your tenderness
I have no certainty
I am floating away
Nothing to rely on
I am holding still
Yet for a moment
What a moment is this
For this moment
We are embraced in a kiss

Can you hear the distant thunder
Sounding off a billion unshaped souls
All begging for creature comforts
For the feeling of what we feel
When each other we hold

With all that we are given
We are just one woman and one man
We speak of 'union'
This union of this woman and this man

Give Me Peace

Break out
We should talk
I will stand outside
In this cold dark world
I know this life is hard to begin
When you feel like its all over
But its here we can begin to start over

I know your spark for me has yet to rest
I know we both are full of hurt and regret
I will never forget the summer nights when we met
The clarity of your eyes
The smell of your neck

You know I'm dying
But I just can't let anyone know
I pray to God I can stop this sinking
All the things we left fully unsaid
All the things we should have done
But we never did
All of the things I should have given but I didn't

Give me peace
Give me these moments of our past
Give me your smooth kiss once again
I need these moments back
Please

Time For Bleeding

So I knew you were wasted
But I found out your dreams
Its so sad because when we are waken
Everything is exactly what it seems

I know he gave you roses
If you wanna throw them out
Great
But by the time you do
It will be too late

Oh
Doesn't it burn
To see me
Pleading
Both words and excuses
Are lame
I guess its time for
Bleeding

My mom told me to let the dream go
I'd rather see you hit me
Just because I've gone too far
I always lose whats real

I know you'll turn out fine babe
Like things are made green by the sun
I fell I've wasted my time at our fork roads
Now I'm too old to run

Oh
Doesn't it burn
To see me
Pleading
Both words and excuses
Are lame
I guess its time for
Bleeding

If its pity that I need
Or you're rejection I plead
This will never
Form to what I said

So everyone says to let you go
God, I'd rather see you hit me
Just because this has gone too far
And I'll lose whats real

I guess its time for
Bleeding

Fifteen Years

We gathered here from everywhere
For this July day with stories to share
The dreams we all once made
Growing up in the exact same place

Hearing rumors and things we suspect
Feeling the effects of time and death
We all feel like we're in a trance
No more are we wallflower souls

In this group there is no more loneliness
We all sparkle and sway
No more 'single fate'
Its good to feel like ourselves

This place is where we all started from
Its good to see so many familiar faces this day
Walking these once loved hallways
We've shaken the dust off our shoes
Of this sleepy town
We still gather in groups and guess at the stars
Fifteen years
We can't catch up in one day
I want to hear the stories coming from friendly lips
I could stay here forever

Never Prayed

You said 'fair well old friend'
'Our season has come to an end'
So your conscience has left
And all your lies are at an end

You were always my star
I always knew you'd go far
You'll stand in the flame
Just to make a name

Your limit has always been the celing
You buy another round
Lonely but for this feeling
I can hang around
For you I'll hang around

Would the clock on the wall
Tick the time before we fall
And fall I'll do
If only for you

Given the chance to run
It has left me spun
So I'll drive around in this car
And be reminded of what I need you for

This desaster
Is it what I am after
Oh I need you to
Remind myself
That its my fault
Its not all my fault
I can't hear your pain
I will pause no more
I've never paid before
I've never prayed before

You wish for more than feeling
You buy another round
Lonely but for this feeling
I can hang around
For you I'll hang aroud

My Baby

Oh yes
Some days it can be so easy
There are moments
When I forget
How much I want your touch again

I never wanted to play this game
Where if I lose some I become lonesome
My Dad once said
Boy when if you find a good one
Don't let her get away

Yes
If only I had listened
I would have you
Exactly how I want you
I thought I'd have you back again

I played it all so cool
God I acted a fool
Acting like I never had
Nothing much to lose
But I know you
And you sure know me
I knew you could see
I am begging you please
Help my find my way back to you

Now I'm driving past your basement window
Where you used to let the candles glow
Feels so long ago
But you still live in my memory

Remember when I asked you
If you would be my one true?
I'll never forget what you say
Just like it was yesterday

I played it all so cool
God I acted a fool
Acting like I never had
Nothing much to lose
But I know you
And you sure know me
I knew you could see
I am begging you please
Help my find my way back to you

I want to you feel me too
So please love
Just take me back
Please
My baby

Oh if only I could have you
If only I could feel you
Just the way I want to
To once again let the world know
Its always just been me and you

I played it all so cool
God I acted a fool
Acting like I never had
Nothing much to lose
But I know you
And you sure know me
I knew you could see
I am begging you please
Help my find my way back to you
My baby