My Skin I'll Cut

I've got this feeling
Like theres something that I missed
Don't you speak
Something happened
That I never understood
Don't you leave

Every second
Counting off my finger tips
I hit the floor
Another lover
Who says hes not ashamed to cry
He's a fool
He fell for you

In slowmotion
This slap is so beautiful
Your door slamed shut
Your heart is beating
But its him you tell to stay
My skin I'll cut
I could say so much

But I'll shut up

Return

You've got to leave me now
And go out on your own
You got to chase what seems
To be a life all your own
Before it slips away

When you are flying high
And far from home
Take my heart along
And sing no more lonely songs
Please remember me

When the wind is in your hair
I'll be the solid ground
Whatever may find you there
Meet all with care
All that may be found

I'll keep my heart hid up
And watch for your return
My darkest dream will be
That your love will burn
And I won't be the fire

I swear to be your other half
That always holds up my side
Building a bridge between
Your sweet soul and mine
And my toils will not tire

When the wind is in your hair
I'll be the solid ground
Whatever may find you there
Meet all with care
All that may be found

Well

I cant stand myself
And more than this
I can't take these midnight drives
Into Wood Canyon

I am in love with your laughter
I am in love with how you speak
I am in love with your manner
I am in love with how you teach

See this could be our present
You showing up like this
How our bodies would speak love
How time would stop with our kiss

This self destructive path
Leads only to defeat
I need you now
You've never left my heart

You know it well

It Does't Have to Rhyme to Make Reason

I love you
And we both know
This Fall wedding is farce
We both know where I am is false

I am going to break my bonds
And find you again
Relieve my strains
And we'll begin again

I love you
I hate how I feel
Without you
And knowing you'll soon be his
It kills me more

What the hell was wrong with us
To know at such a young age was a gift
And we walked away
I hate myself even today

I love you
And you know who I mean
I am talking to you
I speak to you
If you'll continue to read

Continuing days lead to September
To where you'll say you love him
And this "white" wedding
We're expected to buy
When our love shows it to be a lie

Many days I wish for an accident
Some moment to be our loves cement
I care so much still
And I am tired of the double life

I love you still
As I know you love me

If I Only Could

Is it too much to ask, love
Is it too much to know
The mechanics of his fate
How it feels to surrender our love

I can see you in the dark
I can smell his cigarette
You don't seem to care
Our souls once had a spark

If I only could
I'd display my despair like art
And tear my soul out for you
I'd tear it all to pieces

My blood is red
There's more than enough
And if I could I'd spill it all for you
For lack of the words I should have said

I see you at night
The places you sit
The friends you meet
I am so put aside

So much hate for the ones we love
Tell me we both matter baby
If I only could

Wholly Understated

I forget when words were only words
She knows this place makes me nervous
In this stage we can't get hurt
Please don't try to understand me
We're too cool to be alone
But not too crazy to be trusted

I found out one life just ain't enough
I need another soul to feed on
I'm the flame I can't get burnt
I'm wholly understated

But I found silence in this space
An on and off again distraction
I need such amazing grace
Heaven swept me away

Love don't change, don't come around here
Don't wear my heart on your sleeve
Like a high school letter
Don't dream, 'cuz nothing will ever come from it
And the people we've become, well
They've never been the people who we are

I strapped on one horse and prayed for luck
I dug another hole to bleed
I know exactly how this works
I need a new sad ending story

I don't need you crowding up my space
I just want to get inside you
You can't believe the hurt you save
Giving something away

I dreamed that the world was crumbling down
We sat on your back porch and watched it
I dreamed that the buildings all fell down
We sat on your back porch and watched it
I dreamed that the world was crumbling down
We sat on your back porch and watched it
In my head I heard the sound
Like obscene strangers dancing

But oh how I want you to know me
Oh how I want you to know me
Oh how I wish I was somebody else
Oh how I wish you could love