Daylight

in this proud land we grew up strong
we were wanted all along
I was taught to fight, taught to win
I never thought I could fail no fight left or so it seems

I am a man whose dreams have all deserted
I've changed my face, I've changed my name
but no one wants you when you lose
though I saw it all around
never thought I could be affected

thought that we'd be the last to go
it is so strange the way things turn
drove the night toward my home
the place that I was born, on the lakeside
as daylight broke, I saw the earth
the trees had burned down to the ground

got to walk out of here
I can't take anymore
going to stand on that bridge
keep my eyes down below
whatever may come
and whatever may go
that river's flowing
that river's flowing

moved on to another town
tried hard to settle down
for every job, so many men
so many men no-one needs

Heather

You were talking about life
And I couldn’t stop staring at your red hair
I think I fell in love with you
I fell for something inside

It was the way you smiled from the corner of your mouth
And looked up while you laughed
Could you tell me why
Or what this is all about

When you finished talking, the stars shook
The waves broke
The clocks stopped
And just one word was all it took

I wish I could have predicted this
It was too good
It was too quick
And now it's on me to miss this

Why does it have to come to ruin
All that time just passed away
We no longer share hearts
Your door no longer lets me in

But this is life
This is what it’s all about
I will get over this
But I will never forget that night

Haunted by Autumn

I know why you come here
I know what it is you seek
We both know why I pen these words
You look for normality, a taste of true love,
To hold the flower you can’t keep

You know how deep I can love
You know with what intensity I can bear my soul
You know it now, you are reading it now

My dreams bring you in
The breeze keeps blowing you through my mind
And I look for you

I can’t love like I loved with you
The time it took to build
The power it released when destroyed, it scares me
We will always have that love
Like scarred shoreline it will always be there

It’s this time of year I feel you the most
I hear your voice in the yellowed trees
I feel you now, and it haunts me
I am haunted by autumn

Its not allowed

My broken heart wants a broken neck
I have done some things
I want to forget, but I can't

I know its not allowed
But sometimes you might find
It feels like nothing is
Its everything you've been

This aint real baby
I got a better excuse for myself
I am always here
Waiting on the shelf

Sit on top of this world
Tell me what your feeling
What you feel
Is what I feel for you

All I want is you
Your whole soul
If that's too much
Don't let me know

Emptiness confounds me
Loneliness astounds me
Me and you
In all I choose
Its always you

There's a way, everybody says
To do each and every little thing
But what good does it bring
If I aint got you
If I aint got you

Do you know what its like
To love somebody, to love somebody
The way I love you

'til kingdom come

Steal my heart and hold my tongue
I feel my time, my time has come
Let me in, unlock the door
I've never felt this way before

The wheels just keep on turning
The drummer begins to drum
I don't know which way I am going
I don't know which way I've come

Hold my hand inside your hands
I need someone who understands
I need someone, someone who hears
For you I've waited all these years

For you, I'd wait 'til kingdom come
Until my day, my day is done
And say you'll come, and set me free
Just say you'll wait, you'll wait for me

In your tears and in you blood
In your fire and in your flood
I hear you laugh, I hear you say
"I wouldn't change a single thing"

The wheels just keep on turning
The drummer begins to drum
I don't know which way I am going
I don't know what I've become

For you, I'd wait 'til kingdom come
Until my days, my days are done
Say you'll come and set me free
Just say you'll wait, you'll wait for me
Just say you'll wait, you'll wait for me
Just say you'll wait, you'll wait for me

Your heart and all its visions

Your heart and all its visions
These boys they’ll never listen
For too long they’ve held you under
Your voice carries so much thunder
Your right how you felt this pain
And you said it
Down in the heat of the summer rain
It all came across and nothings faded
Try as we sleep our minds keep racing

I tried to hold on
To your heart and mine
Try to hold on
Now here we are in this moment
Singing songs, and secret poems
Written around dried out flowers
Try to hold on

Can you see in all your visions
My love, is there a clear division
For too long they’ve held us under
And I know it’s almost over
These boys and their Kansas tears
And you said it
Down in the heat of the summer rain
It all came across and nothings faded
Try as we sleep our minds keep racing

I tried to hold on

Dance with You

sittin' on the beach
the island king of love
deep in fijian seas
deep in some blissful dream
where the goddess finally sleeps
in the lap of her lover
subdued in all her rage
and I am aglow with the taste
of the demons driven out
and happily replaced with the presence of real love
the only one who saves

I wanna dance with you
I see a world where people live and die
with grace
the karmic ocean dried up and leave no trace
I wanna dance with you
I see a sky full of the stars that change our minds
and lead us back to a world we would not face

the stillness in your eyes
convinces me that I, I don't know a thing
and I've been around the world
and I've tasted all the wines
a half a billion times
came sickened to your shores
you show me what this life is for

I wanna dance with you
I see a world where people live and die
with grace
the karmic ocean dried up and leave no trace
I wanna dance with you

I see a sky full of the stars that change
our minds
and lead us back to a world we would not face
in this altered statefull of so much pain and rage
you know we got to find a way to let it go

sittin' on the beach
the island king of love
deep in fijian seas
deep in the heart of it all
where the goddess finally sleeps
after eons of war and lifetimes
she smilin' and free, nothin' left
but a cracking voice and a song,
oh lord I wanna dance with you

I see a world where people live and die
with grace
the karmic ocean dried up and leave no trace
I wanna dance with you
I see a sky full of the stars that change
our minds
and lead us back to a world we would not face
we would not face
we would not face
we would not face
we would not face
we would not face

Change

I wish I could be someone else for a while
I chase the same shadows every night
They always fade into nothing under the moon light

Wasted words, wasted time
Haunts me now you were here
Time I want to bend to my will
And words I could change

If we were but who we are
Would that make it easier
Could that change how we feel

Pulled in opposite directions
We want to meet in the middle
And I left, with the woods as my witness to my pain
I stand under the stars and repeat your name

Last Words

I was seven that cold morning in the Idaho Mountains of my youth. Standing there with me, surrounding the small smoky fire was my Grandfather and his two brothers. All branches of the family had gathered there to celebrate my grandparent’s fiftieth anniversary. I stood shivering by the fire, staring at the men that I admired and glorified that towered around me, all holding a beer, and listening to their conversation about the family line. It was at that point they all looked down at me and I heard my grandfather say, “That’s it, he’s it”. Recognizing my puzzled look, my grandfather knelt down, put his large hand on my shoulder, looked at me with those blue eyes that held years of memory and said, “You are the last to carry on the Robbins name, take damn good care of it.” Those words are the last that I can remember him saying to me, and to this day they run as deep as bone.

Este Concion

We were 17 in the winter
And you walked with me that night
I wonder if you still remember
How the snowflakes shined so bright
So bright

Now time has left us lonely
And no one seems to care
Inside we feel empty
Like our ship has set sail

Do you remember in Wyoming
Underneath the full moon’s light
We used to dance together
We used to dance all night

I still love you
I know that it’s wrong
Whatever we had has left
And I should just move on