Meet Me

What if we could
Put our lives on hold
And meet somewhere inside of the world
I would meet you
Would you meet me?

On a park bench
On a sky-scrape on a mountain
Oh yeah whatever it takes
I would meet you
Would you meet me?

So go on
Go on, be around star
Shooting star in my eyes
Look in my eyes

So what if we could
Where would we go
If you felt right now
Would you let me know?

Its like the last chance
For a first dance
Like a sunrise
that's somehow exists

I would meet you
Would you meet me?

L.M.C.

I miss her so much it wakes me every morning
The thought of touching her shakes me without warning
And how easily I go to her scares me sometimes
But we are connected, our souls, in the dead of the night

I now know where I belong
And its with you, in your arms
Gladly enchanted by your natural charms
Find your lips and float away

There in the midst of it, so alive, our souls are one
The moon will shine for you and I knowing we just begun
I want to taste the sweat and salt of your skin
And if this were true, all my dreams could then begin

Sometimes I medicate to fight the doubting
So tired of all the fights, screams and shouting
I feel the only thing I have learned
Is I want a life now on my own

Natural Cycle

If we consider Humans to be a part of the Ecosystem, then that means we are part of nature. If that is true, then isn't all that we are doing considered to be "natural"? Now, if all of this is true, then Global warming, deforestation, and the exponential growth of the human population are all natural functions just the same as Salmon spawning.

As I see it, if you believe all of the aforementioned then we must recognize that the Human race is heading either for change or destruction. And if you do not agree with the idea that all we do is a natural function of Earth processes or it’s Ecosystem, then you are faced with the question of who, or what put us here or created us. In short, you must face the real possibility that there is a God or creator.

Predictable Storm

She can feel it in the wind, the seasons will change
She can see his face when the golden leaves wave
She can't understand, no she can't comprehend
How this all went down, how it slipped through her hands

He walks through the streets, hiding from this deafening roar
Feeling so strange like he's been here before
He can't understand, no he can't comprehend
How selfish he was when he said they'd always be friends

Like a predictable storm that comes year after year
She fights the tears that make an obvious scene
Like the one in her favorite movie
Where the snow begins and she walks up to him
He gives her his love and she shares hers with him

Deep in the night he's all alone wondering if she's home
Screaming so loud to a wakening earth
Will she believe him if he tells her the loneliness hurts
But the September sky hints to his defeat
He doesn't care and springs to his feet

Way across town she stares at the stars
While the engine still runs in her old blue car
It all comes together as she picks up her clothes
She points her car towards his home and off she goes
The excitement in her could light up this night
The music so loud it fills up her mind
She rehearses what she'll say over and over and over again

Its at the park where they finally meet
A running hug and they don't say a thing
He looks at her and she back at him
Finally free to start loving again
The silent promise that's shared in between
Will one day unlock how they wanted to be

The September moon shines as they walk in the dark
Far away from the park that started it all
He's never been so happy, she's never been more sure
For their lonely lives they have found the cure

Burning Banks

What a lucky man
To see the Earth before it touched his hand
What an angry fool to condemn

Just one more night to go
One more night uppon these burning banks
A greedy man never knows what he's done

You had so much
And now so much is gone

Where is all the green
So much here that once was seen
Is there hope for humanity

I heard a perfect echo die
Somewhere deep inside my soul
Blocked by a wall of increadable sound

You had so much
And now so much is gone

From green to black, blue to grey
Sickened soil, no reason to stay
One more sleep upon your burning banks

Am I alone in this

Am I alone in this
Will it be me that she will miss
We must try to figure it out
Did we lose it somehow

The night brings these feelings to me
Beaten by words of what we need to be
Its stuns me
How quickly I will become a shadow in your history

You came over unannounced
The silence broken by your voice in the dark
I need you here tonight
Fall around me now like stars shining on the lake
I need you here tonight
So I have some hope to kill this pain

You never knew how deeply I cared for you
And now I would rather turn than see
You board the plane
And fly away from me

Suddenly I have become part of your past
Who am I to beg this to last
Left to count my foot steps on the ground
Waiting to hear your voice telling me to turn around

You came over unannounced
The silence broken by your voice in the dark
I need you here tonight
Fall around me now like stars shining on the lake
I need you here tonight
So I have some hope to kill this pain

You

You, you’re me
I’m a lock
You’re the key
You’re the air I breathe
But tonight I’m choking

You are my life

You, you’re the sea
I’m the wave crashing
I’m the ground
The ground under your feet
I’m a liar, a thief, an apology

You are my life

Simple Things

So surprised
So taken back
How could I
Turn my back on you like that

I promised you one thing
That I'll always, always be there
Through all your faults
All your thoughts
All your dreams
And all my heart, all those simple things you are

I could never make the sun shine
Except for a few days in your eyes
And it is for that
That daily drives my mind

I never considered myself lucky
And now I feel it endlessly
And all I want is you
happiness, endlessly for you

I promised you one thing
That I'll always, always be there
Through all your faults
All your thoughts
All your dreams
And all my heart, all those simple things you are

Because When We Touch

If he moved you
The way I move you
I'd move time
I'd change everything

When he watches you
When he comes begging at your door
Like a fool playing his game
He has trouble keeping strait your name

You're a priestess
Come save my soul, this creation
All my needs found empty
You're taken
Don't break it all in this fashion

Because when we touch
Time slows down and you hold your breath
Because when we touch
You smile with true happiness

You seem a dream
A matter formed of angels
I am propelled by wheels of passion
When transfixed by your attention

If I could break down these walls that lovers make
So I could scream your name at Heaven's gate
Even if Hell's fire is a step away
I'd still say I am still in love

He won't care for you this way
He'll mistreat you if you stay
He'll never love you
How I love you

Because when we touch
Time slows down and you hold your breath
Because when we touch
You smile with true happiness

For Adrienne

Spent five years building a trust
For it all to be pushed aside
Like standing in a once lavish room
Now alone, holding only dust

She would say
I can see us
Building our house in early spring
Watching grandkids
Play on the back yard swing
Feeding ducks when we are old and grey
Watching the summer sun slowly fade away

How to start over
Where does it all become normal again
Tired of sleeping with tears in her eyes
And whispers as she rolls over

I can see us
Building our house in early spring
Watching grandkids
Play on the back yard swing
Feeding ducks when we are old and grey
Watching the summer sun slowly fade away

To see her now
And oh how she fights
She is becoming who she once was
A free spirit twirling in a cotton gown

Make this life your own
Take what you need
Leave the rest
And learn from what you've been shown

Words

I am going to ride this train
Out of your life again
I wish that I could stay... forever

But more than this I wish
You could have seen my face
In the back seat
Staring out the window

I will be coming back
So leave yourself intact
When night falls outside
You'll find me running through your mind

The morning will come
While lying in your sacred place
You'll wake to see
Only my face

In hope and faith I pray
To reach you these words that slip my lips
I'll do anything for you
This story is for you

Loss For Words

For the first time in a long time I am at a loss for words. I feel like writing, but can't find the words to paint my mind. And its so frustrating having so much on my mind. And it all seems to be that nothing I feel pulls at me at all.

When It All Came Undone Tonight

How can I bear this
Its like burying a dear friend
How can I bear this
What a horrible end

Please know I never meant you harm
These words weren't meant to cause a fight
I feel like fingers missing an arm
When it all came undone tonight

"I have to let you go" you said
What does that mean
Oh let me wake in bed
Let it all be a dream

Another year gone past
I feel my soul ripped out
It all happened so fast
I fear for tears I am tapped out

You were never mine to keep
And I feel imprisoned
Did we let our feelings dig too deep
Where was the clue I was missing

You mean the world to me
And we let it end like this
You are like autumn air I breath
Like a flower I can't resist

We will always have Jackson
And our snow flake covered walks
I can't believe I let this happen
And my mouth is too dry to talk

I am letting you know I ache inside
This is something I have rarely felt
It all came undone tonight
And I can feel my soul sadly melt

Another Man Along Her Way

Does she not know her self worth
I have lived next to her for years
I hear them fight almost every night
And I wonder how she makes up her mind to stay

I would show her the world from the top of my mountain
I can show her love, love she needs more now than anything
I would fill her life with the night sky
Stars would fill her eyes

Her sadness
I would drive to madness
I beg for just one chance
One chance, and on stars we'd dance

Angel, love is all around me
Hold onto me
Oh come closer to me
And don't let go

If the ties that bind break in two
Would I suite to stand next to you
And what if time was ours
Could I keep your love in an alabaster jar

The way your eyes deserve the fire they bring me
Makes my heart ache and break in two
I throw it all away
So I guess I'll pretend it doest end this way
I'll meet you at your door everyday
And pretend everything is the same

I want to de-throne his power over you
Like a love drunk fool
I would fight for your freedom
The only word that saves

I don't know a thing
Other than the warmth seeing you brings
So with my dirty rage I wait
With longing in my gaze
That you can see through this window pane

I really have nothing like you left to lose
Should I tell you he isn't listening anyway
But its totally up to you to choose
And nothing is changing anyway

What's the point in all this pining
She walks past me everyday
Without a final glance
Without a thought of chance
I am another man along her way

I Wish I Could Feel You Tonight

I wish I could feel you tonight
You are so far away I want to reach out
And touch your heart

You see I am not so bad
My intentions are pure
And I love you so

If I rearranged my life
Would you find a place to sit down
And become my delicate secret

These are crazy days
And all the stars seem to say
It will be alright

The dark
I hate it so
When the moon rises
And won’t leave me alone

When my childhood comes for me at night
Your face bathes me in light
I hope that never ends

I am not unhappy
I am comfortable
And a touch lonely

Like the woods in winter
My heart waits
For the spring you bring to me

And all it takes
A few words
A call by mistake

You are mine again
A few moments
We are one again

Happiness is all I wish for you
I hope you can feel that
I am with you whatever you go through

Rio Triste

One night, in the pueblo of Tamazula where I lived in Mexico, it was too hot to sleep. I found myself restless and in need of a cooling night walk through the jungle. My footsteps lead me to a small river that lazily made its way through the thick green jungle just over a mile from my small house. Two small logs were thatched together and made a make-shift bridge that connected the well beaten trails that lead to the river. The locals called the small river “Rio Triste” which means “Sad River”. I never understood why they called it the Sad River; it had always been a place I looked forward to passing during my daily tasks. This night I found it dark and peaceful. I sat for hours watching the full moon dance on the slowly passing water, and lost in my thoughts I heard someone approaching. I scrambled to my feet and hid behind a large tree, waiting to see who it was. As I sat, crouched I saw her; it was a young lady, maybe nineteen or twenty years old. The moon shone off her dark hair, and she just stood there, looking across the river, waiting. I sat there, transfixed by her beauty. My gaze was broken when I watched her face turn into a smile followed with a small exclamation of glee. I followed her eyes, to see what had brought her so much joy. I saw a young man crossing the small bridge to her. They met in a very strong embrace followed with a passionate kiss that lasted for some time. When their young lips finally separated they began to talk. Her name was Alma, a daughter of a rich watermelon farmer. And he was Noah, the son of a fisherman from the small town of San Blas. Their conversation moved to topics of love, poetry and promises. Noah became frantic in his promise to marry her, no matter what her father had to say. He promised a life outside of Mexico, a life in the United States. He had walked the entire evening just to see her. He told her his love for her was as strong as the mountain her father’s farm was on. From where I was crouching I could tell she believed him. She wiped her tears away and Noah lead Alma to a quiet place where they could physically express their love for one another. When I was sure they were gone, I got up and began the mile hike home; the whole time smiling, thinking of Noah and Alma. From that day to now, that river, and small bridge means so much to me, and has become a metaphor for my life.

Consistency

It is a cruel reality that as humans we watch loved ones grow old, crumble, and die. And at the same time I can walk out my door and see the same Robin, and hear its sweet song just as I did as a young boy. I can go to the river and catch the same fish I caught when I was six, and it would look, smell, and taste just the same today as it did those years ago. It is as though nature is in a state of perpetual youth. There are days I long for such consistency in my life.

Cold Blue Stream

I know your laughter through the trees
It makes me smile when it reaches me
You look so amazing when you sleep
And when I dream, it is you I see

She is a valley deep and green
She is a cold blue stream
She is everything that means anything to me

You fill our time with magic
And when you dance, you make the music
You have always been so free
And showing how to be free is the gift you have given me

With every white light
Before the sun reaches to touch the sky
I turn your memory over in my mind
And I am on fire knowing you are mine

You are a valley deep and green
You are a cold blue stream
You are everything that means anything to me

The Sweetest Dream

Mirror reflect this scream
I've angered long
To chance upon the sweetest dream
So stretch my skin
Restless gods
In cryptic words
Riddled songs
Break apart this for which I long

Make it turn
My heart of hearts
I need pain to change my life
Gentile mist
And turning leaves
We all come to bury truth

My naked soul
Just has to grieve
If I leave
I will move against my will
Stay with me a while
While I sleep

Am I so blind to believe
This is what I am
Can't they see
This cable coils
Around my neck
Now and then
I could use a friend
A friend of use

My roots are buried deep
As deep as they can climb
Now and then
I could use a friend
A friend of use

There is always one more scar
I am sure to blame for this
I need to get this too
Now and then

Her Gaze

All alone and cold as stone
With no man to call her own
Lost in a world of love
Seeking solace in the pillow she hugs

She screams through the distance between
She hates what she is too scared to see
And gazing down the deepening hole
She’s reaching out for her last bit of hope

In her mind is her secret life
Keeping all deep inside
To the north she casts her gaze
Wondering if they will meet up again