Only Take Once

Damn, you are a drug
One that can't be taken once
One that can only be seen
One that hooked me

Now these cold wakes
Make me a player in your game
To take it slow
Is to all but let go
I've given into my fate

I seek in vain
Feeling my pulse begin to strain
Your glance eases the pain
I am yours

I wake to the thought of you
The image tares me in two
I'm on fire
Addicted, seeking your higher

Now these cold wakes
Make me a player in your game
To take it slow
Is to all but let go
I've given into my fate

The Smallest Kiss

If your memories were paper
I would have worn them out by now
Running through my mind
You twirling in that gown

If you smile were a passing cloud
It would would rain liquid sun
And I would love it
I would dance in the mud

Its a curious thing how we felt
How we both carry the stars
On our hands rests Orion's belt
And nothing makes sense without the two of us

I know how you feel
Crash down this furry red
Crash down your heart and head

The smallest kiss left this story
The smallest kiss
And now we stand without a story
We stand with no glory

I can see how this story fell
I can see it all now
Fate, we can hide
And time can stand aside

The smallest kiss is how we fell
The smallest kiss

It Would Be The First Time

Good times for a change
See, the luck Ive had
Can make a good man
Turn bad

So please
Let me
Let me get what I want
This time

Haven't had a dream in a long time
See, the life Ive had
Can make a good man bad
So for once in my life
Let me get what I want

Lord knows, it would be the first time

I'll Be Your Pride

I roll the window down
And then begin to breathe in
The darkest country road
And the strong scent of evergreen
From the passenger seat as you are driving me home

Then looking upwards
I strain my eyes and try
To tell the difference between shooting stars and satellites
From the passenger seat as you are driving me home

"do they collide?"
I ask and you smile
With my feet on the dash
The world doesn't matter

When you feel embarrassed then I'll be your pride
When you need directions then I'll be the guide
For all time

A Reason to Stay

Oh when i see you
I really see you upside down
But my brain, it knows better
It picks you up and turns you around
Turns you around

If you feel discouraged
If there's a lack of color here
Please don't worry lover
It's really bursting at the seems
Absorbing every beam
The spectrum's a thru z

This is fact not fiction
For the first time in years
And all the girls in every girlie magazine
Can't make me feel any less alone
I'm reaching for the phone

To call to say its me and on your machine
I slur a plea for you to come home
But i know it's too late
I should have given you a reason to stay
Given you a reason to stay

This is fact not fiction
For the first time in years

I Can Remember December

I remember it well
The first time that I saw
Your head around the door
'Cause mine stopped working

I remember it well
There was wet in your hair
I was standing in the stairs
And time stopped moving

I want you here tonight
I want you here
'Cause I can't believe what I found
I want you here tonight
I want you here
Nothing is taking me down

I remember it well
Taxied out of a storm
To watch you perform
And my ships were sailing

I remember it well
I was standing in your line
And your mouth

Nothing is taking me down
Except you my love

Come all ye lost
Dive into the moss
I hope that my sanity covers the cost
To remove the stain of my love

I wanna hear what you have to say about me
Hear if you're gonna live without me
I wanna hear what you want
I can remember December

And I wanna hear what you have to say about me
Hear if you're gonna live without me
I wanna hear what you want

A While MG

Way up in that sky
I look up and I wonder
If that's you passing by
It's been a while since I was your man

Used to shout up from outside
Wake you when you were sleeping
Now I walk the streets, I don't recognize nobody
It's been a while since I was your man

As time passed us by
We never felt like we should
We never did what we ought to
And folks they used to smile
And now they just think that they should
They just think that they should

We used to roll around on the floor
Get some Chinese delivered
Listen to Adore
It's been a while since I was your man

Oh She Knows

Autumn glow
I see you with me
Feel the snow
I see you in me

Your dreams show
I would be free
Should have known
I would come see
And she knows

I should go
See you in June
This time will hold
And its all for you
And she knows

Body

Hold silent
You were my violent snow
In my life
Just for the moment
And then the young die
So you can die
I was alive
In my body
You'll never find me
You'll never pull me in
In my body
The lonely creatures scream

Junes of cast
Left tired in their bones sleep
Burned alive
Wasted sunsets
Haunted my tunnel light
Right through my clothes
I was alive
In my body
You'll never find me
You'll never pull me in
In my body
The lonely creatures scream

In my body, you

Yes, I am waiting

Please drive slow
I've never been this way before
Violence reels in the underground

Yes, I am waiting
In silence throne
To fill the meetings
To strike me down
No more a reason
Than god above
Let your curses run
Yes, I am waiting
For your love

Radio waves of a dying sun
Radio speaks my soul alone
Forget my names, erase the page
And dinners draw the passengers
Yes, I am waiting
In silence throne
My blood of treason
My tears of home
No more a feeling
Than being cold
Of playing on
Yes, I am waiting

As I walk your street
Yes, I am waiting
As I ride your dreams
Yes, I am waiting
Inside your doubts
Just let me out

MM Issac

I hope that you like it in your little motel
And I hope that the suite sleeps and suits you well
Well I can see it as time and as sight through smell and
Thats why its nice to be by yourself

Cause thats what I'm waiting for
That's what I'm waiting for, aren't I?
That's what I'm waiting for darlin'

We treat mishaps like sinking ships and
I know that i don't want to be out to drift
Well I can see it in your eyes like I taste your lips and
They both tell me that we're better than this

We trade tit for tat like that for this
And i don't think that there was an insult that was missed
I can see it in your eyes like I taste your lips and
I'm very sorry

Cause thats what I'm waiting for
That's what I'm waiting for, aren't I?
That's what I'm waiting for darlin'

It rained and its over a shooting star
Landed directly on our broke down little car
We fold and we had made a wish
That we would be missed
If one another just did not exist

Cause thats what we're waiting for
That's what we're waiting on, aren't we?
That's what we're waiting for darlin'

I think its kind of funny that as time goes by we all look back and wonder what the hell happened or even how the hell did we get here. Also how time seems to go faster the older you get. And that scares the hell out of me. I soon will make a life-changing move; one that will place my life on a new road, a new line, different than the one I had planned many years ago. But who cares really right. I mean thats the point of living I think, to make your life your own, make those decisions that lead you towards unexpected outcomes. Safety is gay, and I mean gay as in stupid... not sayin gays are dumb... anyway, if you don't get what I am trying to say you should probably leave now. Anyway, I just wanted to say that. I will post more poems/ lyrics soon.

Too long

Its been too long since I have written anything. And that will all change soon. I just hope no one has given up on me.

One Knee

Summer time, late afternoon
Begging for the rain
Knowing the morning will come too soon
Both were holding on in vein

Grasping at the moments passing by
While ignoring time
Separating just to turn up the music
And dance the night to shame

He told her his heart was her home
So when the sun comes
She won't have to go

So on one knee he asked her to stay
And for all of her life she had waited to feel this way
There under the mountain sky
She said 'yes' and both cried

They damned time, and damned fate
That night they chose which path they'd take

I Can't Find Myself

I can't find myself
I can't find myself
In the head of this stranger in love

Holding on given up
To another under faded setting sun
And I wonder where I am...
Could she run away with him
So happy and so young
And I stare
As I sing the lost voice of a stranger in love
Out of time letting go

In another world that spins around for fun
And I wonder where I am...
Could he ever ask her why
So happy and so young...
And I stare... but...

I can't find myself

Explain

Its hard for me to explain why I write, or how these ideas come out. If I had to come up with one reason why I write, it would be because I feel like my time would be better used up somewhere else. Not that I'm not happy here, at school and work; but my mind, at times, is elsewhere.

Hotel Bed

You may tire of me as our December sun is setting because I'm not who I used to be
No longer easy on the eyes but these wrinkles masterfully disguise
The youthful boy below who turned your way and saw
Something he was not looking for: both a beginning and an end
But now he lives inside someone he does not recognize
When he catches his reflection on accident

On the back of a motor bike
With your arms outstretched trying to take flight
Leaving everything behind
But even at our swiftest speed we couldn't break from the concrete
In the city where we still reside.

And I have learned that even landlocked lovers yearn for the sea like navy men Cause now we say goodnight from our own separate sides
Like brothers on a hotel bed
Like brothers on a hotel bed

Dcfc

And it came to me then that every plan is a tiny prayer to father time
As I stared at my shoes in the ICU that reeked of piss and 409
And I rationed my breathes as I said to myself that I'd already taken too much today
As each descending peak of the LCD took you a little farther away from me

Amongst the vending machines and year-old magazines in a place where we only say goodbye
It stung like a violent wind that out memories depend on a faulty camera in our minds
But I knew that you were a truth I would rather lose than to have never lain beside at all

And I looked around at all the eyes on the ground as the TV entertained itself
'Cause there's no comfort in the waiting room
Just nervous pacers bracing for bad news
And then the nurse comes round and everyone will lift their heads
But I'm thinking of what Sarah said that "Love is watching someone die"

So who's going to watch you die?..

Free Yourself

Don't look back now
Don't look back over years gone by
Their gone
And now its time to leave

Don't look back now
You have to let your childhood go
And then you'll find a peace within

And you'll free your mind to sleep
And you'll free yourself of me

Don't be afraid
You have so many choices
Hold your head up high
And say "good-bye"

No second thoughts
You have a future waiting
Take my hand and I will show the way

Free your mind to sleep
Free yourself of me
And you'll free yourself to sleep

Yup.... this is me.